it's about that time

this is about the time of year where i begin to question everything. today in my teaching writing class i began a silent freak-out. what on earth am i doing with my life? i want to be a teacher? a teacher?! what makes me think kids will listen to me or care what i have to say? i don't know enough to be a teacher! (yes, yes- i know that's why i'm in college- beside the point). i don't know anything about teaching! i don't know how to write effective lesson plans, or writing prompts. or how to grade student's papers. how am i supposed to make my students see that writing and reading is important? why is reading and writing important? i've somehow completely lost sight of that. i don't really see a purpose to my future or my future career at least. why should my students read To Kill a Mockingbird? why should they write research papers? i don't know! what am i doing?!

ps- thank you for allowing me to freak out. expressing the thoughts always helps somewhat.

the buzz

isn't this just the cutest picture ever?! I love it.

I love BYU basketball. Just in case you didn't know. Yesterday was quite possibly one of the greatest days of my life. No joke. Yesterday the buzz all over campus was "did you see the game?" and no one needed to question which "game" people were referring to. Ah! 99-92 win in DOUBLE overtime. I thought I was going to have a heart-attack. I couldn't breathe, I was shaking- seriously intense. But with a wonderful, wonderful result. I love Jimmer! GO COUGARS! (Now if we can only beat Kansas St. tomorrow ...)

wow: word of the week

ps- this is where I would rather be: on a beach in the sun

I just learned a new word. I really hate not knowing what a word means so whenever I see a word I don't know I have to look it up.

peripatetic: walking or traveling about now you're in the know too.

ps- i saw that word in this awesome article about Kate and Andy Spade. Very interesting. Also, see pictures of their amazing home here.

the family

My wonderful cousin Emily is doing a series this month on the Proclamation to the Family. She asked me to write a guest post for it. Check it out.

wishin' and hopin'

all i really want to be doing right now is playing tennis in this adorable tennis skirt from Nike. Instead, I'm at work in a windowless basement. And then I get to go home and write a 12 page paper that is due tomorrow. Awesome. I guess I'll just have to save my tennis dream for another day (not that the weather is conducive to tennis- but a girl can dream).

what i was doing when i should have been writing my paper

SDSU @ BYU: 82-68

Best friends! Plus our lovely friend Theo

ffej, bowser, jenny and licious

this is what the bench does after we make our first basket- it's a cute routine and this picture doesn't do it justice.

to do list

I've been thinking a lot about things I want to do/accomplish before graduating from BYU. I only have a year left. A year. That really isn't much time. Especially if I do my student teaching in Washington D.C. next winter semester- then I'll have even less time. So during work the other day I decided to google things that you should do before graduating from college. But all the lists I found were totally lame.
Here is what I've come up with so far:
1. Go inside every building on campus.
2. Write a heartfelt thank you to my favorite professor
3. Get into the Daily Universe (in any capacity!)
4. Donate blood at an on campus blood drive
5. Go to the hunger banquet
6. Participate in the passover seder
7. Take a road trip to an away sports game
8. Commit to memory at least one poem
9. Participate in the Rex Lee Run
10. Storm the field/court at a sporting event

If anyone has any further ideas I am very open to suggestions. I want things specific to BYU but also just in general.