Sunday, June 28, 2009

Really!?!

Normally, being twenty years old and unmarried, with zero prospects of marriage wouldn't be a big deal. However, courtesy of the good ol' institution of BYU apparently, being twenty and very single with graduation peeking around the corner (-ish, still two years out, but I've been here three years so...) is a problem. I was talking to my lovely friend Kristen a few days ago about how ridiculous it is that I'm TWENTY (I can not emphasize this point enough) and feeling pressure to get married. Lots of friends are either already married or taking the plunge this summer. I am not remotely close to this possibility in my life, and ya know what?! I'm totally ok with that. I don't want to be married! I have so much to do and to learn about myself and others. I still don't know who I am yet, I'm not ready to add another person into the mix- at all. Even if I graduate unmarried, so what? It effects no one but me. I don't need people telling me that if I graduate unmarried then it'll never happen. Really?!? What are you trying to do to me man? And you want me to stop hanging out with two of my best friends because they're boys and because I know I won't marry them and therefore they're not marriageable prospects? Really?!?
I love my life. I love where I'm at and what I'm doing. I love not worrying about taking care of anyone but myself (and yes, I know how selfish that sounds). I love the freedom I have. I love all the friends I've met and the wonderful time we all have together. I'm not married, and nor am I dating anyone, but if it doesn't bother me, it shouldn't bother you. Ok? Things will happen in due time. Someday I'll meet my Mr. Darcy and get married but until then, let me enjoy what I've got.

p.s. The title of this post is courtesy of this clip. It's a favorite among my brothers and me.
p.p.s. Sorry for the bitterness that might be found throughout the above rant. I just needed to get it out. BUT please note, I am not against marriage at all. It's wonderful and great! Just not for me right now.

2 comments:

Cam said...

You tell em Jenny. My wife Kim was a serious college student at age 20 with several years til graduation and even a little longer after that til her prince charming finally showed up. :)

Besides, do you still have a 27 month stint in the Peace Corp on deck after college graduation? Although, Mr. and Mrs. Darcy could serve together, if you're both qualified and have been married for 1 year.

Vanessa said...

WAFFEL!!! Hello pretty =)

I loved your post - - hahah, I'm graduating in less than three weeks and just ended things with a bo and cut ties with future possibilities. I've got a job and a studio apartment waiting for me in Boise so I'll be living there for at least 6 months (lease) after graduation. Just me and my future. I'm a little nervous, but not about to rush into a relationship because "it's the thing for a 21 (almost 22) year old LDS graduate to do". I miss you and hope to see you soon!!!!!

love you